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I believe him. Completely. He and I have been though things that you couldn’t even imagine - and this…I promise you, it won’t come between us.

– Claire to Malva, 6x06 “The World Turned Upside Down”

What haven’t Jamie and Claire endured, for each other’s sake?

Neither of them could have imagined on their wedding day exactly what they would face. Had they known, would they have married anyway?

Well, Claire says it herself in the very first episode: “Even now, after all the pain and death and heartbreak, I still would make the same choice.” Because to not choose each other, would be a life truly not worth living.

For posterity - here’s my list of exactly what Jamie and Claire have been through. What they’ve endured for each other - and precisely why their love is so, so strong:

  • Physical harm
  • Sexual assault
  • Death of a child
  • Inability to raise their sole living child together
  • Living in exile
  • Prison
  • Giving their body to another man, to guarantee each other’s safety
  • Marriage to another person - full of spite and regret and pain and the ghost of each other
  • Homelessness - multiple times
  • Poverty
  • Starvation
  • Loss of reputation
  • Murdering others - multiple times
  • Inflicting physical harm on others - multiple times
  • Marching with an army
  • Illness
  • Death of a grandchild

“The most effective way to destroy people is to deny and obliterate their own understanding of their…”

“The most effective way to destroy people is to deny and obliterate their own understanding of their history.”


George Orwell


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kanbukai.com 2022-06-28 22:14:41


He felt as though today was the first–or at most, the second–time he’d seen the real Claire.

She was most certainly not Claire Malcolm, the young widow who fastidiously kept her head down and only revealed her true spirit when focused on healing. That Claire had often seemed somber and world-weary. She was also steadfast and dedicated, to be sure. But ultimately, she had been trapped in her grief, emerging to feel the sun on her face only when she couldn’t bear the darkness another moment longer. Or perhaps only because she had people who depended upon her.

The woman John had met and befriended a year ago now bore only a passing resemblance to the one who’d fallen into Red Jamie Fraser’s arms that morning.

kanbukai.com 2022-06-28 20:43:57


So… Going to share this blip of a story/idea I’ve had for awhile now. It’s never been anything but this and maybe a little bit more. It use no names, so isn’t specifically OL, but I definitely had Claire and Jamie in mind when writing.

** Fair warning: it’s rather dark and depressing, so if you aren’t in the mood for that sort of thing, please skip. it involves memory loss in a fictional world. **

Anyway… Enjoy!


The dark was solace. It was peace, all black and gray, except for the stars behind her eyelids. She could feel him next to her, his breathing running through her, his heartbeat a thrum in her own veins. She took a deep breath, glad he was still there and not… 

She scratched an itch on her arm, reaching across with her right hand to touch her left, but instead meeting his fingers, wrapped as they were around her left hand. She hadn’t even felt his touch, and it worried her. Was she forgetting already? 

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