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定義

Thursday, 19 November 2009

我們都太懂得考試。甚至相信考試。黑色幽默嗎，我們可以相信神可以信命可以信愛，但如何相信一個制度，以一個制度作為我們精神的寄託。還是悲哀呢，我們不敢不相信考試。因為我們已沒有別的去相信。心底裡我們是否清楚，不知從那刻開始，我們已讓考試成為要別人去認同自己的方式。所以我們都太懂得要別人去認同自己。甚至相信要別人去認同自己。不敢不相信要別人去認同自己。其實考試是沒有本質的。它不一定是那個要別人去認同自己的方式。是我們自己怎樣看我們自己，然後我們界定了這個方式的傾向，然後這個傾向反過來囚禁了我們對自己的定義。考試只是其中一個表徵，我們對自己的看法的表徵。一個別人認同的自己，夠不夠。如果你有一個很愛很愛的人，你想不想他只懂得只相信要爭取別人的認同。那個很愛很愛的人，或者是你的男人。或者是你的女兒。或者是你小學相識至今的朋友。你想不想他一生在追逐之中。你有沒有想過他不只是別人認同的那一個人。他不是他的性別。他不是他的工作。他不是他的學位。他不是他的國藉。他不是他的宗教。他不是他所屬的任何團體。他不是他所住之處。縱使這許多事情捏塑著他的存在。他是他給你的，感覺。你有沒有如此著緊的一個人。那一個人，又會不會，首先是你自己。

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serial time killer

Please let him come, and give me the resilience & guts to make him respect me, be interested, and not to throw myself at him with loudness or hysterical yelling; calmly, gently, easy baby easy. He is probably strutting the backs among crocuses now with seven Scandinavian mistresses. And I sit, spiderlike, waiting, here, home; Penelope weaving webs of Webster, turning spindles of Tourneur. Oh, he is here; my black marauder; oh hungry hungry. I am so hungry for a big smashing creative burgeoning burdened love: I am here; I wait; and he plays on the banks of the river Cam like a casual faun.

Sylvia Plath (via pkam)

02/08/12

bolmi:

(by PaigeSteplewski)

02/06/12

In order to arrive at a personal style, you have to have a technique to begin with. In other words, when I say that style is a special case of technique, you have to have the technique — you have to have a place to make the choices from. If you don’t have a basis on which to make the choice, then you don’t have a style at all. You have a series of accidents.

“You practice and you get better. It’s very simple,” iconic composer Philip Glass famously said. A new NPR interview by his cousin,This American Life’s Ira Glass, gleans deeper insight into the philosophy and creative process of the modern genius. (via curiositycounts)

02/03/12

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